15 April 2017

Anxious Days

Honestly, after the Berlin Wall came down and the Soviet Union fragmented into individual nation states, I never really thought about nuclear war again. And yet here I am worrying about goddamn thermonuclear apocalypse.

As well as healthcare, the environment, immigration, and every other damn thing you can think to worry about in this Age of Orange.

For the past decade or so, every time we humans would do something shitty, I would remind myself of all the good things that were also happening, but now I don't know that there's enough good to balance all the bat shit human wickedness I see. Too many people seem hellbent on unstitching civilization and destroying the planet for whatever profit or advantage can be obtained by that regardless of the cost to others (indeed, the cost to others may be a definite bonus).

I can barely explain what's happening to myself -- can't imagine what it would be like explaining it to children. And, oh, I have been fighting. But what is that fighting worth? What is it accomplishing? 2018 feels too dangerously far in the future to be worth pinning hopes on.

Like a proper white lady, I having been doing yoga and meditation to try to find a spot of calm. But the mantra I frequently whisper to myself is not "hope" or "love" or whatever other optimistic nonsense word the yoga instructor suggests we focus our practice on. It is "doom." Breathe in, "ohmygodohmygodohmygod." Breathe out, "dooooooooom."

13 April 2017

Lemon & Dill Baked Tilapia

I'm down to cooking one supper for the two of us during the work week, because -- between my new job, gym, yoga, poker, and other important things -- our weekday schedules don't overlap at suppertime. And when I am around to cook, I find I want to make something fast, easy, and mindless.

Essentially, we eat a lot of variations on this dish. It works with pretty much any white fish as well as salmon and the fresh dill can easily be replaced with equivalent amounts of dry herbs or seasoning blends. The only things that are consistent from version to version are oven temperature, lemon, olive oil, and garlic.

Lemon & Dill Tilapia

Yield: 4


  • 4 tilapia fillets
  • 3 cloves garlic, minced
  • 3 Tbsp minced fresh dill
  • 1 Tbsp lemon juice
  • 2 Tbsp olive oil


  • Preheat oven to 400°F.
  • Brush a baking dish with a little olive oil or spritz with cooking spray.
  • Blot fillets dry with a paper towel and arrange fillets in dish.
  • Mix remaining ingredients in a bowl and spread over fillets.
  • Bake fillets uncovered for 15-20 minutes or until fish flakes easily and has reached 145°F.

12 April 2017

Wordless Wednesday: Perky Purple Pansies

"I send thee pansies while the year is young,
Yellow as sunshine, purple as the night."
~ Sarah Dowdney, Pansies